I wrote when Ellie was sick that one of the things I really liked was how she let us hold her and rock her to sleep. Well it turns out that it wasn't a sick thing. She lets us hold her and sing to her while she lays her head on our shoulder and falls asleep. After 9 months of not letting us snuggle her you can understand why we take advantage of these moments.
Today, she wasn't interested in falling asleep on our shoulder so we just put her down to let her cry herself to sleep. After 10 minutes she was still crying and was crying her scary cry (not much breathing, really angry, etc. She only does this every once in a while when she is really sad) so I went in and I picked her up. It was really sad.
She laid her head on my shoulder and stopped crying but she was still really worked up and was doing that thing babies do after they cry where they breath in or something and it shakes their whole body. Does that make sense? I don't know what it's called when they do that. Anyways, as soon as she settled down, and with her head on my shoulder, she let out a sweet little "Dada, Dada" and then fell asleep.
MELTED MY HEART, AGAIN.
While she slept on my shoulder I thought about how sweet she is and has been for the last few months. I love how she says Dada when she sees me walk in. I love how she crawls all over us and touches my face. I thought about how sad it is to see her sad and to hear her when she's really crying.
I thought about all the times I will get to comfort her with a hug when she is sad. I hope she'll let me do this during every stage of her life. I don't look forward to the sadness she will experience from physical, emotional and spiritual pain during her life. Its hard to imagine little Ellie in so much pain.
I'm grateful for families and the support they provide. I'm lucky to have a great wife who does so much for our family, and for parents who care so much about us. I love being a dad. It's my favorite thing right now. Ellie brings so much joy as she continues to learn new things and show more and more affection for Marci and I.
Thanks Ellie for being part of our family.
Labels: Favorite Things, Melt My Heart, Snuggles