A Comfort Snuggle
I wrote when Ellie was sick that one of the things I really liked was how she let us hold her and rock her to sleep. Well it turns out that it wasn't a sick thing. She lets us hold her and sing to her while she lays her head on our shoulder and falls asleep. After 9 months of not letting us snuggle her you can understand why we take advantage of these moments.
Today, she wasn't interested in falling asleep on our shoulder so we just put her down to let her cry herself to sleep. After 10 minutes she was still crying and was crying her scary cry (not much breathing, really angry, etc. She only does this every once in a while when she is really sad) so I went in and I picked her up. It was really sad.
She laid her head on my shoulder and stopped crying but she was still really worked up and was doing that thing babies do after they cry where they breath in or something and it shakes their whole body. Does that make sense? I don't know what it's called when they do that. Anyways, as soon as she settled down, and with her head on my shoulder, she let out a sweet little "Dada, Dada" and then fell asleep.
MELTED MY HEART, AGAIN.
While she slept on my shoulder I thought about how sweet she is and has been for the last few months. I love how she says Dada when she sees me walk in. I love how she crawls all over us and touches my face. I thought about how sad it is to see her sad and to hear her when she's really crying.
I thought about all the times I will get to comfort her with a hug when she is sad. I hope she'll let me do this during every stage of her life. I don't look forward to the sadness she will experience from physical, emotional and spiritual pain during her life. Its hard to imagine little Ellie in so much pain.
I'm grateful for families and the support they provide. I'm lucky to have a great wife who does so much for our family, and for parents who care so much about us. I love being a dad. It's my favorite thing right now. Ellie brings so much joy as she continues to learn new things and show more and more affection for Marci and I.
Thanks Ellie for being part of our family.
Labels: Favorite Things, Melt My Heart, Snuggles
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That was a very eloquent and sweet post. It brings back a lot of memories. That was always my favorite time of day with you 3 boys when you were babies and toddlers. I always rocked you and sang songs to you before putting you to bed. There's nothing as wonderful as a little one relaxed in your arms. I still want to rock you guys to sleep sometimes, but if I mention it you think I'm so weird.
How is it that some babies are born into families who choose to miss out on everything that you wrote about... and others are so blessed to have parents like you and Marci! I wish every baby was as blessed as Ellie. Thank You for sharing your thoughts and feelings about Elie. I hope someday she gets to read it... and re-read it again and again. You are doing a phenomenal job as a daddy. I love to watch you interact with her. Thank You for letting me come and experience some of these things with you all. It's a privilege.
Love you!
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